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The Person vs The Performance

Dear Stranger,

“You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.” – Maya Angelou

It has been a while, but as you know this beautiful thing called life has a habit of getting the way of even the most neatly laid plans. Not that I am complaining, every day that I draw breath is a blessing, but sometimes somewhere in the middle of it all I question whether it is me as a person or a performance?

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Tobacco My Blesser

Tobacco my Blesser
I heard your name before I saw your face.
What mystery you possessed, I could hardly wait.

Tobacco My Blesser
What will it be like? I secretly ask.
Friends like me curious, but not brave enough to take a chance.

Tobacco my Blesser
We met today.
It was so alarming, I will never see you again.

Tobacco my Blesser
My friends say I should give you another chance, that you are not as bad as you seem.
They are right! Every breath is like the sweetest kiss of forbidden sin.

Tobacco My Blesser
You have a lot of powerful friends.
They take your money and present cases to your defence.

Tobacco My Blesser
Why do you tell everyone you are bad?
That makes no sense. Why do you stay if you should go away?

Tobacco my Blesser
It has been 10 years now and I can no longer deny
They weight on my chest and the pain in my lungs

Tobacco my blesser
I quit you today.
No longer will I take your abuse, allow you to hurt me in any way.

Tobacco my Blesser
I did not mean it, I’m sorry!
Everything hurts, I cannot think. Please take it all away.

Tobacco My Blesser
Did you get my message? I called last night and this morning too.
Will you go with me to the doctor?

Tobacco my Blesser
Hello, Hello are you there??
The doctor says I am sick and there is nothing they can do.

Tobacco My Blesser
To my surprise he ask about you by name, said he had seen your signature before.
Battered and bruised on the inside, not even my soul was spared.

Tobacco my Blesser
Can you help me out?
There is not enough money to pay all the hospital bills.

Tobacco My blesser
Are you serious?
No I do not need another cigarette, I thought you were my friend.

Tobacco my Blesser
My body gave up. I could not hang on anymore.
Will you come to my funeral and check on my family and friends?

Tobacco My blesser
So this is who you were?? Full of hot air and false promises??
I thought we had a bond, at least to me you would be fair.

Tobacco my Blesser
This was your fault!
Where are you? Where were you?

Tobacco my Blesser
Tobacco my blesser
You blessed me with DEATH!

But God…

I have not always made the right decisions
My mistakes seem countless
But God always believed in me

I have demanded my own way
Made all the plans for my life
But God always did what was best for me

I have been angry and retaliated against the Lord
I yelled, I screamed and acted as I pleased
But God always forgave me

I have hidden my face from the Lord
Depressed and defeated by my shame
But God always welcomed me

Now I have joy and hope in my heart
Faith and trust in His word
Because God was and is always with me

Friends

God said bad company corrupts good morals.

The devil whispered they have no effect on you.

God said that friends will comfort and sympathize with you in times of trouble.

The devil whispered they must be busy, besides these are your problems not theirs.

God said treat others the way you want them to treat you.

The devil whispered, what can they do for you?

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It’s OK to struggle

Dear Stranger

As a Christian who has struggles, it is not a sin to seek professional help. Telling someone helps you makes sense of the voices in your head. Yes it is scary. Yes you will be vulnerable. But until you begin to unburden the secrets of your heart and deal with it, even your happiest moments will touched by darkness.

So I encourage you today, tell someone. There is no shame in struggling. The is no shame in admitting you needing help. There is no shame in mental illness.

You Are Not A Mistake

Dear Stranger

There are times, for some that time is now, when you will have doubts and question everything. Questions like are you are in the right job? Relationship? Or even why you were born? You see people around you and everything seems to be working out for them, and yet you feel like you have done everything right and it still nothing changes.

Maybe your story is different. You haven’t made all the right decisions and you find yourself feeling trapped by the mistakes of your past. You don’t see how anything could ever change for you or that you even deserve change.

Now you are at a loss of what more you can possibly do in your situation. You wonder was everything a mistake? Are you a mistake?

In moments like these I remember my favorite scripture from the Bible, Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

So know this, God always had a plan for your life. He knows what you have been through and what you are going through. He knows what you have done, but He STILL has a plan. You are not a mistake.

I Just Wonder

Does Christianity today have a place for Jesus?
If He walked through the doors today, would we recognize Him for who He is?
Would we seat Him at the pulpit or relegate Him to the back of the room?
I wonder, just wonder, have we missed the point of it all?

Keep your eyes on God

Dear Stranger

You gain nothing if you give everything for an image of what everyone else thinks you should be, for as they encourage you, they hope for your downfall. Keep your eyes focused on God for He will never lie nor deceive you, for His instructions are always just and true. 🙏❤️

Break The Silence

Dear Stranger

Children will say the strangest things at every opportunity they get. I have seen parents wish the ground would swallow them whole because their precious bundle of joy chose that precise moment to demonstrate how well they can speak. While most of us laugh it off as our hearts melt at their cuteness, their parents will do their best to explain why they shouldn’t repeat mommy’s conversation with her friends in public. However there are those moments when the words they say have the power to change everything and yet in those moments we do our best not to listen.

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